Yoga Pants Life

 

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I started to write a whiny post about weight and all that jazz…and then I remembered

(a.) This is not a weight loss blog

(b.) 2017 is my year of shut up and get it done

I keep typing and deleting because I don’t even know what I want to say. Perhaps instead of complaining, I should be out running. Perhaps instead focusing on a stupid number that could be really high for any number of reasons – shark week, birth control, weighing myself mid-afternoon after drinking 2.5 liters of water (I mean, let’s be honest, I’ve most definitely put on some weight. You can’t blame 30 pounds on birth control. You just can’t, but still) Maybe it’s the different brand of anti-depressants I’ve been taking (because good God, I can’t drink enough water. I’m thirsty all the time and my sleep is out of whack again.)

I think what’s really bothering me is that I allowed myself to gain the weight in the first place after working so hard these last few years to maintain a 45 pound weight loss. It’s hard knowing I’ve gained all but 10-13 pounds back. I’m also worried I won’t be able to run a full marathon in June and I’ll let myself down yet again. The worst part about it is I didn’t get here by eating massive quantities or not exercising. But I do think I became a bit too relaxed and consistently let a glass of wine turn into two and gave into my sweet tooth for far too many afternoons.

All I can do now is make better choices. I’m not going on some hard core diet and I’m not going to use exercise as punishment for eating a cupcake. It’s not about hitting a specific number on the scale…but it is about feeling healthy, running with knees that don’t ache and not living in constant fear that someone will ask me when I’m due.It’s about being able to fit into my wardrobe again, because while I’m all about the yoga pants as much as possible, I’m an adult and I can’t get away with elastic pants 24/7/365.

So, I guess this was a post about weight after all…but it’s on my mind and I need to get it out. So here it is. It’s all out there now.

But, in the spirit of ‘shut up and get it done’ I’m going to take a walk around the block and see what I do from there (I’ve worked out for the last three days and two of the days were intense, so today may just stay an ‘easy’ day and quite frankly, I think my brain needs some ‘zen’ and downtime right now.)

This may (temporarily) turn into a weight loss blog after all and that’s ok for now.